so this is a new year.

before i say what i am about to say, i will ask that none of you take offense at what i say. these, my words, are merely a source of comfort for me. they are not meant to stab or point fingers. they are just my thoughts and feelings needing to be said aloud.

so a new year is upon us. i've spent the past few days thinking about the past year, as i'm sure most people do. generally in looking back on the past, i've tried to always have a mindset of not regretting anything. yes i make mistakes. we all do. and i just try to learn and grow from them. maybe i'm just overwhelmed by life lately, but for some reason i wish i could have a "do-over" for the past six months or so. i almost think that if i could relive the past six months, i would. there are many things that i would do the same, but there are also many things that i would like to do differently. i wonder how different things would be now. would they be any better? maybe it's the romantic in me, but i kinda think they would. i know it's foolish to think like this, but oh well. unfortunately i've been a little overwhelmed by this lately.

how is it possible to be so overwhelmed and full of anxiety or whatever and yet feel so empty?